…. they are back ….
the emotional swings are back.
i m beginning to swing from anger to sadness again.
still trying to let go of all my quiet little wishes, the wishes that i have kept deep inside, denying their existence.
i can no longer deny their existence, they are there.
but thats all it will ever be, quiet wishes that can never be!
time to get that into my head and heart!
they can never be!
no more hoping!
…… easier said than done ……
i guess ……
she will never be there by my side to support and encourage ………..
she will never listen to what i have to say.
can never be held the way i wish to …..
and ….. beginning to believe that it is true,
it is easier to hang on to hate rather than let it go,
coz when you let go of hate,
there is a void that you feel that can never be filled ….
a void she has created and left in my heart.
