am still trying to keep it together
normally during raya, i would feel a certain sadness, deep down.
but i never ackowledged it before.
this year, i know what is the source of that sadness.
know it clearly ….
no more hiding …..
but there is nothing i can do about it.
guess that sadness will always be there.
the void she has created will always be there.
a void she will never know that she has created.
i never realized that i had pent up so much thoughts and feelings.
that there are moments, i feel overwhelmed by what i am feeling.
my thoughts, my wishes, my hopes.
thoughts that i have kept deep inside, wishes and hopes that i know now for sure will and can never come true.
i wanna move forward,
i know wat to do for the future,
but for now, still trying to over the past and getting through the present.
